Sunday, June 18, 2017

Father's Day Letter

I had never been good at talking out my feelings face-to-face. I remember very early on I would write letters to my mom and dad whenever there's something important I needed to tell them. As I'm getting older, I have learned to force myself to learn to talk to them personally. But the thought of writing it all down in a letter -- having the words stare right back at you -- will always seem special to me.

For this year's Father's Day, my dad is not physically able to celebrate with us as he is currently confined in the hospital due to a traumatic brain injury secondary to a fall. I did wish him a Happy Father's Day by his bedside and I know he heard me.

But since he is not conscious to comprehend how much love is ensconced in my greeting, here is a letter I wrote.

One day, Papa, I will be able to read these words to you and you will hear them, feel them. One day soon after, you will then be able to read these words to yourself and know that your one and only daughter loves you very much.
Papa, even though the situation we're in is exhausting, it doesn't measure up to all the hardships and sacrifices that you have made -- you and Mama working together -- for me and my brothers; for our whole family. 
Now we're making it up to you. No matter how hard the situation we're facing, we are willing to work for it, in order for you to heal and recover. There's still much more we will go through with you, most of all, myself. :)
Happy Father's Day! I love you! 
Your one and only bunso, 

Friday, May 26, 2017

Turning 26


It's my birthday today! As a gift to myself, I decided to throw caution to the wind and start blogging again. In the last couple of months, I realized that I have too much to say for it all to be bottled up inside my head. I might just go crazy!!

The days leading up to today hasn't been easy for the world. Tragedy after tragedy seem to have happened within the span of days. Being the kind of person that I am, I was very saddened and my heart felt heavy knowing that the world is suffering, with the thought that I'd be celebrating my birthday in the same week. When I woke up today though, after I said a small prayer with thanks for another morning, another day, another year, something within me settled.

I realized that I am just a small speck in this big wide world. I'm an even tinier bit of dust in the whole universe. But I am here. I exist. I am breathing. And that is surely a lot to be thankful for. I know I am not able to do much to help fix the bad things happening in this world today, but I am sincerely offering my thoughts and prayers towards the world's healing. I pray that that would be enough.

As far as birthdays go, I never really made a big deal out of mine. Like the years before, today was simply a laid back celebration at home with my family ❤
Yay, cake!!!!

Thank you to all my friends, family and relatives who extended their greetings! You definitely helped make me feel that my birthday is worth celebrating despite everything going on. My birthday wish, as cliche as it sounds, is inner peace within all of us, and that our hope in the world never falters. "For where there is hope, there is love, where there is love, there is peace."

P.S. Thanks so much to my cousin who wins best birthday greeting award (aside from my mother, of course!!), who also made my new blog header!!! YAY!!! :)